I open my eyes
I try to see but I am blinded by the white light
I can not remember how
I can not remember why
I am lying here tonight

And I can not stand the pain
And I can not make it go away
No I can not stand the pain

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
Ive got no where to run
The night goes on
As I am fading away
Im sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Everybody is screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I am slipping off the edge
I am hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I cant explain what happened
And I cant erase the things that Ive done
No I cant

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
Ive got no where to run
The night goes on
As Im fading away
Im sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

I made my mistakes
Ive got no where to run
The night goes on
As Im fading away
Im sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

The Red Devil is on fire

Finally Arsenal's unbeaten run comes to an end as Manchester United slotted in 2 goals from Ruud van Nistelrooy and Wayne Rooney in the last minute of the match. Nothing much to say just Glory, Glory Man united !!!! Their are back on title race, and of course they have a lot more work to do !!!!

Details

ESPN Soccernet

Man Utd.com

Pics of the match

Man Utd.com

++ everything that has a beginning, has an end ++

Ramadhan Al-Mubarak
samat menyambut puasa kpd sume di harap anda sme dpt berkah dan rahmat yg tak terhingga drpd Illahi, n nnt time raya jgn lupe jemput dtg umah kalo wat open house hahaha !!!!! peace~!!!

Happy Birthday Again, fz !!!!




Hehe wat a day n tenks to all my frens yg dah wish n still lg remember me, arigato kozaimas !!! yg wish thru YM la, sms la, n yg live pun ader terima kasih yer kwn2 !!! lurv ya all !!!! time tuh derang2 nih la ajak men futsal si mimi dd nani ngan keron, oleh krn tak penah pun try nak men futsal sbb derang selalu ckp bess sme2. so sajer la nak try ari tuh penat tuh penat la gaks tp bess sbb men ngan membe2 lama ngan baru, main just for fun jerk. Dpt la gaks kita sumbat duer gol, hehe , tp mmg scrappy abis.

Taper la tuh, tak kisah la janji enjoy gaks la men game futsal patut la derang beria nak men, pastuh laks tbe2 tgh dok usha org men futsal tuh derang wat surprised laks dtg bwk kek blueberry tuh, tenks yer korang sedap sgt kek tuh. mmg kena calit abis la huhuhu !!!! Tp overall nyer mmg bess la smlm, tenks yer korang2 (tak tau la nak ckp tenks caner dah).

p/s: gamba courtesy from mimex (clix for more pics)

++ another me one year older ++

............updated...........





hahahah nih satu lg suprise, uhuhh mimi nyer idea la nih fz actually dah blk umah dah then tbe2 dier msg kata nak siapkan esemen tak phm katanyer, kena blk jugak mlm tuh. Then alih2 derang nak wat suprise rupenyer, hehehe nakal erk korang !!!! Tp kali nih bkn fz sorg jer yg celebrate, ader lg si naddy ngan ct !!! mmg ramai org yg sama besday kat mmu nih ruper2 nyer. Overall bess la party smlm ngan membe2 yg sporting n supportive (tenks so much!!) abis bertepung bdn dan muke huhuh !!! rasanyer fz sorg jer kot yg kena plg teruk sekali, hehe taper la sekali sethn tader hal la !!!

Specel tenks kpd pemberi2 hadiah dan peng-organise party, korang mmg rawks, hehe !!! may ur life all be bless by Allah n achieve in wut ever u all dream of (my pray on my birthday)

++ treasure the moments ++

WELCOME !!!! NEW SEMESTER ..... n .... NEW LIFE !!!!

After 3 weeks of one of my great holiday ever, finally i've come back to MMU untuk meneruskan lg sisa2 pengajian yg masih lg ader di cyberjaya nie. Actually there are a lot of things happen in my holiday not to mention that my brother had his UPSR and i have to take care of his academic. Well, dah time2 cuti tader menda nak wat lgpun time kita cuti adik2 sumer still sekolah lg, so mmg taleh lari la dr kena antar adik2 sekolah, jemput dan sebgainyer. Kalo dok kat IPTA cuti sampai 3 bln leh la gih carik keje, dpt la ckit income. Kalo 3 minggu jerk cuti keje pun tak cukup utk dpt gaji, hehe !!!!

Tentu korang tertanya2 naper la gamba tu wat per kat sini? (click for bigger pic)Bknnyer aper, baru2 ni ari sabtu 18/9 ader majlis konvokesyen kat UPM, sbbnyer saya pergi ke sana adalah utk meraikan my father yg telah abis phD. dier so kiranyer nih majlis konvo dier la nih. Honestly, this is my first time that i go to konvokesyen since lahir tak penah pi lg majlis konvo. biler pi jerk kat sini terasa laks diri sendiri nak terima ijazah, hehe !!!! Terasa cam jeles laks tgk penerima2 ijazah2 nih, naik satu persatu disebut nama laks tuh...perghhh bangga nyer apetah lg kalo dpt first class, huhuhu !!!! Sepanjang duduk kat dlm majlis tuh, terbayang2 caner la nnt biler kita dah grade kang, nak rasa sedey pun ader happy pun ader, mesti time tuh emotion bercampur-gaul tp yg pasti time tuh i'm gonna miss all my fren a lot.....!!!! But until that time happen, biler ader jer time utk bersama, we gonna have a lot of fun together !!!! So i guess, i have to be ready to start one new academic semester, 4 flat here i come !!!!!

++ a thousand journey begins with a single step ++

HAPPY HOLIDAYS, FRENZZZ !!!

So that's it another flip of book in my life one semester in MMU in gamma year, so many things happen back then, but if i can i would have write it here to share wif u guys. But there are so many things that i can't describe in words.

Anyway wish u all (MMU-ians) a very happy holiday n hope u guys/gals can take care of urself very cause we're gonna continue our 'madness' in semester 2, hehehe !!!

That's all folks.........may Allah bless u all !!!!

++ still wondering ++

Forum Ekonomi Rakan Sebaya Kebangsaan 2004

Assalamualaikum shbt2, hehehe i think its been about 2 weeks saya menyepikan diri wat seketika bknnyer aper kan dah mention bz pasal forum nih, kalo tak caya leh tgk gamba di atas tuh, hehe !!! overall program tuh mmg bess la, dpt dok hotel (Palm Garden, Putrajaya) walaupun dekat jer ngan kampus nih tp jrg2 dpt dok sebilik ngan membe2 dlm hotel. After all, this is my first time that i involved directly in program that is organised by the students. Byk la jugak IPT2 yg dtg antaranyer UNITEN, UPM, IMU (international medical university), dan ader jugak wakil2 yg dr jauh spt. UNIMAS, UiTM Machang, KUSZA pun dtg !!! dan ramai lg la yg tak sempat disebut di sini, sumer2 sekali ader la dlm 150 org yg hadir, huhu byk kan !!!!

Saya plaks time tuh menjadi usher VIP ngan mimex, keje nyer melayan dato'2 atau VIP2 yg hadir pada program itu, nak kata bess tuh tak jugak la. Mmg la dpt mkn ngan org2 besa tp biler mkn ngan org2 besa nih kita pun kena la control mkn kita, huhuh takleh la nak mkn byk2. Mkn pun cam tak mkn jerk, lg bess la kalo dpt jd usher univ. at least derang bebas mkn byk mana pun derang suker. So, selalu la biler VIP dah blah jerk kita2org yg kena layan dato' td terus gi mkn wat kali kedua, hehe !!! uishhhh tak dinafikan lapa ooooo biler seharian wat keje2 nih, nama pun kebangsaan huhu betapa besarnyer program nih yg perlu dihandle oleh sume pihak yg terlibat.

Dlm setiap program mmg besa la ader yg tak bess happen, sama jugak la program nih is just that tader la event yg tak bess yg membuatkan program nih terus tak dpt berfungsi, tp malas la nak citer benda2 tak bess kat sini nak wat aper kan? bak kata pepatah moden jgn tensen2, nnt cepat tua . Nih nak tima kasih sekali lg kpd ahli2 Biro Sekretariat yg telah memberi sepenuh masa dan tenaga utk menjayakan program nih dan tak lupe juga kpd sesapa yg telah memberi tunjuk ajar kpd fz dlm program nih, since i am first timer, arigato kogzaimas !!!! b4 that ader jugak la disertakan gamba2 utk tatapan u all, skit jerk taleh byk2 private ma, hehe (click for bigger picture) !!!!

   

++ final exam dah dekat, huhuhu ++

Finally managed jugak curi2 time utk wat blog nih, actually nih pun sbb stay up wat esemen english (biz plan) n then pg kang i have to do the finance assignment.....frankly speaking rite now i'm not done finished my works as next week my group have the presentation of the biz plan. We are the first group since that no one in our group come to Ms. Rajan's class at the time dier cabut undi untuk menentukan who's grup goes first !!!! Not to mention the cyberpreneurship also have to do the biz plan which have to be submit next tuesday, so i guess this week i'm staying in the hostel alone again, huhuhu !!! But nevermind, although i will be staying here then i ask for mimex to watch the AF for me n tell me the result (jgn lupe mimex, hehe !!) lgpun dier mmg keen ngan benda2 nyanyi camnih, maybe dier pun ader bakat kot nyanyi ahaks ~!! pastuh laks si fieda ngan shinizzle tgh dok tunggu derang nyer plan nak gi tgk I, Robot tp shinizzle telah tgk dulu citer tuh !!!

For the MTEN project, arigato kozaimas kat sumer2 under my biro yg telah mengorbankan masa dan tenaga sampai diri2 mereka pun telah terkorban meh nak kasi credit kat sepuluh2 membe of my biro (tepuk2 ) ----> jue, adikz, no_rulez, pakwan, cd, mira, faizah, azi n elly for their outstanding job !!!!! , yeahh come on bebeh biro sekretariat the bestt !!! kalo kita kasi credit kat membe2 projek sajer, nnt kang membe2 akademik kecik ati plaks, ehehe !!!

So now bohot bohot shukriya kpd sme2 my akademik membe yg telah bertungkus lumus memecahkan otak utk menyelesaikan assignmen2 yg telah diberi esp to budak2 accounting (mimex, gigot_d, phumba, bubbles, deviliz, shmunzz, serene, thumbalena) n sorii sgt2 kalo ader sesaper yg termiss dlm list nih korang sme mmg best !!! sesungguhnyer mmg bertuah dpt kwn cam korang, yg cukup lengkap pakej rajinnyer, caringnyer dan byk lg la !!! Tak dpt ku bygkan ketika mana kita sume telah grade n berpisah antara satu sama lain, huhuhu !!!!! abg sedey dikk !!!!


++ sweet memories never dies ++

Hectic weekend and a week after that......and after that !!!

Aishhh another breakthrough from my own life, this week i must say that it is the bziest week of my life not to mention the next week n the week after the next week, huhuh i hope that the time will stop n maybe give me some time to finished all the works, but nevermind........aper gune nyer manusia kan kalo tak mem bz kan diri !!! Lately, agak rajin jugak la bukak website2 news nih cause saje jerk wan to update myself with the news around the globe.

Alih2 mmg tak berubah sgt pun dunia nih ....yg perang still perang yg kelaparan still kelaparan jugak but one of the news that proved it is there is some dude from Philipines that just being release from hostage situation in Iraq (full story), or if u miss the action of wat happened before the release, read here (full story). So the truth about who actually capture this person remain unknown but of course they always blame the muslims.

So lately, i've enjoyed myself to the punk rock songs such as Lostprophets, Rasmus, but for now i give u Yellowcard - Only One.



Yellowcard
"Only One"

Broken this fragile thing now
And I
can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But
I can't, I can't give you a reason

I feel so broken up (so broken
up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you
know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my
only one
I let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you do
You
are my only, my only one

Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I
can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I
can't get up when you're gone

And something's breaking up (breaking
up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you
know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my
only one
I let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you do
You
are my only my only one

Here I go so dishonestly
Leave a note for you
my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you
will find someone

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to
you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one, no one like
you
You are my only, my only one
My only one
My only one
My only
one
You are my only, my only one
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++ creating the emptiness ++

(TRAILER REMOVED)

Release Date: July 16th, 2004

Synopsis : High school senior Sam Montgomery (Hilary Duff) lives at the beck and call of her self-obsessed step-mother Fiona (Jennifer Coolidge) and her sinfully wicked step-sisters, who treat her more like a servant than a member of the family. With her sights set on attending Princeton, Sam finds her less-than-sparkling social life wonderfully complicated when she meets her Prince Charming online. But when her anonymous cyber soul mate turns out to be her high school's über-popular quarterback Austin Ames (Chad Michael Murray), Sam makes a mad dash back to reality, leaving her cell phone behind just before the clock strikes midnight. Fearing rejection if her secret is revealed, Sam dodges Austin's efforts to discover the identity of his princess. Will Sam let fear hold her back, or will she find the courage to be herself and claim the life she's always wanted? Her chance at "happily ever after" depends on it.

 

Aishh mcm2 la jd this weekend, ngan Zarina nyer kuar AF, aisehman !!! n my mom plaks got her new handphone huhuhuh (jeles2...huhuh) taper2 nnt la kita nak beli yg baru nyer nokia 3220, hehehe !!! anyway she bought the Nokia 3100 which is looks like this:

Final exam have come out al ready which is not so suitable cause i have to take law exam at my first exam since i dun like law subject. It seems like history, which we have to read and memorise it, ahh i really dun like to read though, it make me sleepy
, n for the time being i have very much of assignment have to submit within this week !!!!!


Final Exam

16/8	Biz Law
17/8	Financial Acc 2
18/8	K - econs
20/8	Cyberpreneurship
26/7	English 2
27/8	Corporate Finance

 
++ have to keep mentally strong ++
 

(TRAILER REMOVED)

Synopsis : Will Smith stars in this action thriller inspired by the classic short story collection by Isaac Asimov and brought to the big screen by director Alex Proyas (Dark City, The Crow). In the year 2035, robots are an everyday household item and everyone trusts them, except one slightly paranoid detective (Smith) investigating what he alone believes is a crime perpetrated by a robot. The case leads him to discover a far more frightening threat to the human race.

This day is really not very nice one, this is because of the subject FAR (financial accounting & reporting). When i attend the tutorial class first thing lec ask about how to do the financial statement for publishing. Adeihhh susahnyer subjek nih hanya Allah sajer la yg tau, huhuh !!! it is very difficult too when i am not so master about the stock or invesment process, i wish i had the understanding. Nevermind 2morrow i was just going to see him in his consultation hour, abeh la esok lec fz soh ajar dr A sampai Z, hahahaha
!!!! All the tense from this day finally i can get over it when i listen to this sweet song (sekali-sekala dgr la nsyid plaks)

Tajuk: Permaisuri Hatiku
Album: Jalan Bahagia
Kumpulan: Hijjaz

Di antara kekasih pilihan dihati
Punyai budi penghias diri
Wajahnya lembut biasan perkerti yang tinggi
Indahnya perhiasan dunia

Diantara diriku juga diri-mu
Hanya mengharapkan cinta yang Satu
Ku kan binakan mahligai impian-mu
Oh.. sayang ikhlaskanlah hati-mu

Malu-mu bernilai
Kata-mu berhikmah
Hati-mu tulus suci dan murni

Hanya diri yang halal
Engkau serahkan segala
Untuk mencari redha Ilahi

Benarlah cinta buta melalaikan
Tanpa memikirkan batas syariatnya
Semuanya itu hanya ujian didunia
Ia adalah mahar untuk kita ke syurga

Oh.. Kau Permaisuri di hati-ku
Di dunia ini engkau penghibur
Menjunjung kasih amanah Ilahi
Ku pasti akan terus menyayangi

Terima kasih ucapan ku beri
Kau hadiahkan ku cahaya hati
Ku pimpin tangan-mu oh kasih meniti hari
Semoga kita dapat bersama
Sampai kepada-Nya disyurga sana

Tuhan kekalkanlah
Permaisuri hati ku
Untuk menemani dalam mengapai cinta-Mu

++ have to work hard ++

Ahhhh !!!! just finished my midterm exam, totally exhausted and sleepy. Abis jer exam account td terus flat, huhuhuh tdo lebey dr 7 jam. Then after this i have to start to work on the MTEN stuffs which have to submit to s/u b4 this monday, aisehh hope i can make it.

Yellowcard
Gifts and curses

Mary belongs to the words of a song.
I try to be strong for her, try not to be wrong for her.
But she will not wait for me, anymore, anymore.
Why did I say all those things before? I was sure.

(She is the one), but I have a purpose,
(she is the one), and I have to fight this,
(she is the one), a villian I can't knock down.

I see your face with every punch I take,
and every bone I break, it's all for you.
And my worst pains are words I cannot say,
still I will always fight on for you.

Mary's alive in the bright New York sky,
the city lights shine for her, above them I cry for her.
Everything's small on the ground below, down below.
What if I fall, then where would I go, would she know?

(She is the one), all that I wanted,
(she is the one), and I will be haunted,
(she is the one), this gift is my curse for now.

I see your face with every punch I take,
and every bone I break, it's all for you.
And my worst pains are words I cannot say,
Still I will always fight on for you. Fight on for you ...

++ life never been any easy ++

Games Review: Metal Gear Solid 3-Snake Eater

Screenshots (click for bigger pic)

Description : In the struggle to achieve world peace and world dominance, rivaling governments are secretly developing weapons technology that could threaten the future existence of life. Destined to be the first, a race ensues to become the ultimate nation. A special elite tactical soldier is summoned to penetrate deep in the heart of enemy territory and obtain intel about "Metal Gear," a prototype weapon with nuclear capabilities. This is your mission and you must infiltrate alone.Click this link to have some video footage of this game hi (here) low (here)

Rating : 4 out of 5

++ can't wait for the excitement ++